Peace

Soccer Pics

Thomas' new soccer season began a couple of weeks ago. Here are some pictures from his first game!

Profound

This morning I was brushing Stella's hair and we go through our normal routine. This means, I turn into my mother...."Stella, we need to get the hair out of your face. You have such a pretty face, lets see your pretty face!".

I was offering the usual: Pigtails? nope. Ponytail? Nope. So I offered her, "How about half up and half down?"

She turned around and looked and me and said, "It is all or nothing mama."

Isn't that the truth with you baby girl.

Profound:-)

My Performer

Stella loves, loves, loves the movie "Barbie, Island Princess". She especially loves this song from the movie:



This afternoon, Tony captured our performer singing her heart out!!



...and some more....

Friday Morning Yumminess

Science Center Party

The twins had a great birthday party at the Science Center yesterday.



They had their friends from school there. There was yummy cake and ice cream and of course they told us they would bring out an alligator!!



Now...brace yourself...you may have to squint to see the 'alligator'.





That is not a lizard...but it is a baby alligator. It was the smallest alligator I have ever seen in my life!!!

It was a great party! And we could not have done it with help from Aunt Lynn (on baby duty) and Aunt Megan!!

Brothers

Make A Wish!

Can you hear them..."Can I just have one lick of the frosting?? Plleeeeessssseeeeee???"

Some things never change...

Ahhhh yes, the madness continues:-)

Happy 5th Birthday

Happy Birthday to my little monkeys:-) How did I ever get so lucky? The time has just flown by. It actually is just the perspective I need right now. The twins turning five is helping me stay in the moment and enjoy sweet baby James....because it all goes by too quickly!

Happy Birthday!

Easter Wrap Up

I woke up thinking "How I am going to make it through this day?" and I am about to go to sleep after a beautiful, relaxing day with my family. Here is how Easter went...

There were eggs to color:











Checking in with baby James:



There was kite flying:








And the day ended with a delicious dinner! Yum Tony:-)

Happy Easter!!

The New Normal

My anxiety has been coming and going but we have been doing everything we can like, asking for help, talking about my anxiety and just some good old fashion deep breathing:-)

I think part of it is me trying to feel 'normal' again. I think I need to focus more on what our new normal is going to be. That new normal is actually better because our family has a new little addition now:-)

Here are some pictures of our new normal. Thomas still loves organizing his cars:





My little zen bunny:





And, I think James takes after his brother:

Easter Egg Hunt

Tony took the kids to the community Easter Egg Hunt last weekend.

Sweet Baby James

Yep, Still Sweet

Season of my Life

Well James has been home for over a week now and there has been plenty of ups and downs. On the up side, I feel so comfortable with him. I feel like I can meet his needs and love him. I think Thomas and Stella are happy. We have built in some real spoiling this weekend via getting fish for pets, an Easter egg hunt and special movies.

On the down side, I do not feel like myself. I am ridden with anxiety. Anxiety about the baby? Nope. Anxiety about the twins, maybe? The best way I can describe it is that I can be sitting with Thomas and having a normal conversation, but I do not feel normal...I feel like I am faking my way through it. Friday and Saturday, I was so ridden with anxiety...I just needed someone to be with me....not necessarily the help (but that was nice too) but just to be with me. Our friend Lynn did that for most of her weekend...Thank you!! (I actually will never be able to say thank you enough...I know I overstepped my bounds:-)

Last night, I was given the gift of real rest by Tony and Lynn. I won't say sleep because my body won't let itself get real sleep yet, but rest. Today is a new day and I feel a bit better.

One of my favorite blogs, Moms are for Everyone, Emery wrtes about it best here. I am so there.