Pouring

TNT is back! We missed our "Tuesday Nights Together" at our church. Yes, the dinner meal they serve is also a treat too. The kids were back to singing and we were back in our Bible study. The pastor who leads our group, Becky, introduced us to a new video series. The series takes a contempory issue and relates it to scripture. It also is very visually appealing and looks very young and hip. Yes, I just used the term 'hip'. Anyway, tonight was this story about a man who takes his one year old son on a hike around a lake. He has the young boy on his back in a carrier when half way around the lake, the clouds set in. The rain begins, the boy begins to cry; the rain falls harder and the cries get louder.

In our discussion, Becky pointed out that some people will say, "God if you love me, you would not have put me through ______" when in fact that is not true. The rain will come. You can be sure of it.

Back to the video...the rain is becoming violent and the father stops, takes the boy out of the carrier and wraps him in his coat while holding him close. The remainder of the trip home, the father says, "It's ok. I am here. You are going to be ok."

We discussed the rain that has come for some of us and how we are allowed to cry out. Well I am crying...figuratively and literally. Work is my rain. My job is taking such a toll on me and I am in that rain storm right now. Thank goodness I do have people wrapping me up and telling me, "It is going to be ok."

I know I have to surrender. I try to think, and think, and plan, and think. I know I need to let some of that go. I am not. going. to. quit. my. job. today. (repeat as needed).

I will be ok.